Showing posts with label self esteem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self esteem. Show all posts

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Believe in Yourself

Self, you have done it this time. I have gotten myself into something and I'm in way over my head. What is it- you must be dying to know. Is it an affair? Am I having second thoughts about my wedding? NO. It's a...it's so shameful to admit it, but it's a.....PAGEANT. I know, I know, what the hell am I doing in a pageant. I'm actually beginning to ask myself. Especially after seeing all these other girls who are incredibly talented, and drop dead gorgeous, and tall and skinny. And here I am...different. But maybe not different in a unique enough way to get the "thumbs up" for being totally wacky. I feel incredibly normal. It's amazing how easy it is to feel extraordinary when you are in a small pond. The moment you take a step out, you realize that there is brilliance in other places too.
I just keep reminding myself that I can only do as good as I can do. I can only be me, Candy, and that is the beauty of it all. I am competing with myself, and I am going to learn something new about my talents, drive, and abilities. It's not everyday that we have that ability to measure our growth. Maybe I am not an extraordinary girl, but it is just as well knowing that I am a regular girl with extraordinary capabilities and potential.